For the last 4 years I have been living life way out of my comfort zone. Prior to 2018, January 23, 2018, to be exact, my life was a beautiful well-organized mess. My routine was stressful but familiar, and very comfortable. I juggled work deadlines, soccer practices, homework checks, PTA meetings, and all other family responsibilities without dropping a single ball. I had gotten into a groove and as long as I maintained the status quo, everything was good.
On January 23, 2018, I was diagnosed with Acute Myeloid Leukemia, and just like that there was no comfort in my zone. My life as I knew it ended abruptly and suddenly I was facing adversity like I never imagined or experienced. I was always in perfect health and now suddenly I could be dying. I was always there for my husband and kids, now I was confined helplessly to a hospital room. I had dreams of getting older and retiring and suddenly I was living from day to day.
Everything was unfamiliar and out of my control. I was no longer in the driver’s seat of my life, the audacity of me to think I ever was. I had to put all my faith and trust in the Lord God Almighty, a being whose existence I had begun to take for granted. Praying was way out of my comfort zone. I had been having this “drive by” relationship with the Lord for so long, I felt like a hypocrite at just the thought of asking for help.
Four years later, my life is very different. The corona virus has turned all our lives upside down, but my routines and schedules have been replaced by spontaneity and time. Most importantly, adversity has a way of renewing your faith in a higher being more powerful and bigger than yourself and all of your problems.
Comfort zones you say. Now I have something better. I pray every day, trusting the Lord will direct my path, and all that other stuff? I’m flying by the seat of my pants, and I have never been more comfortable!
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