I woke up pregnant yesterday, I have had dreams about this before, but I wasn’t sure exactly how I would feel if my dreams were real. Now I know, the emotion is happy.
I guess at any age, the idea of a little part of him and a little part of me, is not as taboo as I thought it would be. Oh, the exhilaration of being expectant again, as thoughts of another little boy, or finally our little girl cloud my head. Ten little fingers and ten tiny toes, growing steadily within me and nobody knows.
Then euphoria turns to reality and then it hits me, how did THIS happen? Of course I know how it happened, but how did THIS happen! I AM a woman of a certain age AND certain things HAVE already happened to THIS woman of a certain age. So HOW did this happen? Then I remembered, nothing in this world is up to me or up to you, it’s all up to HIM. He can move mountains, he can part seas, he’s good at blessing the wombs of “old” women like me, read the Bible if you don’t believe me.
I woke up pregnant yesterday, at first, I was happy then amazed with faith but now the imperfect believer in me is petrified. A child at this age, what will I do? I was looking forward to retirement, downsizing and a party of two. It has been a while but I remember babies really well, giggles and coo but plenty to do. It’s back to PTA, and homework and back-talking teen, a whole new world and all the growing pains in between.
I woke up pregnant yesterday and then I really woke up…thankfully ALONE!
Happy April Fool’s Day…Sincerely Jan 🙂!
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