Alone

I have never lived on my own before. When I was a child, that was the plan though, that was what I daydreamed about. I would grow up and get a career, then I would move to the city to live all alone. No husband and no children in my future. Honestly, I never cared for the latter, as for the husband it was never even a thought.

However, life had something else in store for me. I did get the career and I did move to the city. Not the city I dreamt of nor even the country, but the career box was checked, and the big city was even bigger than I dreamt. However, I never got the chance to live alone. I moved from my parent’s house to a home of my own with a husband and later some kids I earlier thought I never wanted.

I have no regrets about how my life turned out but there are moments when I really appreciate being alone, like tonight. I had spent the day out with one of my sons and I came back exhausted. I took a nap and woke up to silence. House in darkness, not a single light on. After a check all the rooms were empty. The alarm set was the last clue that I was alone.

Alone yes, even if just for a short while. So, I settle into my peace. I close the curtains, pour myself a drink, turn on a James Ingram playlist, got back in bed and I decided to write. What do I write about? I write about this, me, alone enjoying the solitude, James Ingram singing to me, just me alone.

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22 thoughts on “Alone

  1. Being alone, for a short time can be a blessing. It does not mean I do not like my husband around, sometimes it is just nice to not have to do or think of anything. Just be. Glad you are enjoying the time.

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  2. I’m an introvert, which doesn’t always mean someone is painfully shy or even shy. For me it means I need quiet, alone time to recharge my batteries. If I don’t have enough of that time, I feel out of sync. I enjoyed your essay about alone time.

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  3. I’ve only lived alone for three months, so I can relate to this! I do like being alone from time to time, and even though I’m happily married, I do enjoy a day or two on my own when my husband is out of town. I’m always glad to see him come home though!

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  4. I moved from Kingston to Mandeville and lived alone for the first 2 years of my career. No spouse, no kids. Just an occasional friend over, although I spent most of my time working anyway. It was bliss but sometimes I felt lonely and wondered if the isolation would mean I’d end up alone. Now that I recently began cohabiting with my future husband, it’s been something. I love his company, but I still look forward to my occasional days off from work where he’s out and I have the place to myself

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  5. It’s normal girl, doesn’t matter how many years you’re married and how much you enjoy his company, you will still need that time alone and that’s perfectly ok even healthy 😊.

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  6. I’m usually on the verge of almost saying things and never saying them, and so instead I write it down… Words that would have never existed outside of my thoughts.
    ~B

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